... call me anything you want but that won't change what i think!
... right now i feel very agitated but i cannot even specify the reason. i don't know, all of a sudden thoughts came rushing to my mind and probably took every vain towards my heart which upset it...dunno exactly how it works scientifically but that's how i explain it to myself.
... have you ever felt being free and yet not? i know you do, everybody does for sometime in their lives. i did and i still do many times. sigh! sometimes i wish that i can just rip this web around me literally, you know.
... "some things are better left unsaid. some actions are better left undone". who said that again? i don't know, perhaps a MARTYR. i'm sorry but i cannot be one. it's already difficult to live a life full of caution. why can't we BE just as we ARE? why can't we SEE just as our EYES IMPLY? why can't we SPEAK in the the most ACTUAL way?
... TACT? it's not natural as for me, and anything that is not natural is a LIE. it's complicated to be HUMAN and HUMANE. but that is how we made our world to be...and so BE IT!
(SIGH)... too much ... i need a break down of these thoughts so i could overcome it.
... right now i feel very agitated but i cannot even specify the reason. i don't know, all of a sudden thoughts came rushing to my mind and probably took every vain towards my heart which upset it...dunno exactly how it works scientifically but that's how i explain it to myself.
... have you ever felt being free and yet not? i know you do, everybody does for sometime in their lives. i did and i still do many times. sigh! sometimes i wish that i can just rip this web around me literally, you know.
... "some things are better left unsaid. some actions are better left undone". who said that again? i don't know, perhaps a MARTYR. i'm sorry but i cannot be one. it's already difficult to live a life full of caution. why can't we BE just as we ARE? why can't we SEE just as our EYES IMPLY? why can't we SPEAK in the the most ACTUAL way?
... TACT? it's not natural as for me, and anything that is not natural is a LIE. it's complicated to be HUMAN and HUMANE. but that is how we made our world to be...and so BE IT!
(SIGH)... too much ... i need a break down of these thoughts so i could overcome it.
Old Buddhist Proverb: "Don't worry it will pass, everything does..."
ReplyDeleteDr. Maya Angelou says, "If you do not get what you want today, it is because God is preparing you for something better."