Re-Awakened

I was just talking about stomach flu last time and yesterday i learnt about deadly swine flu. wtf?! Just having a flu alone scares the hell out of me already and here comes another one. I was so scared yester night while I was reading information about this swine flu. My hands and feet were cold, seriously. I don't want to die! Oh no Lord please, not too soon. I will minimize my complains about life already hehe. I will not complain about my low salary anymore, with that, I got so much free time anyway. I have more time to spend with my bf and make a lot more photographs which makes a good day for both of us. I will not be sad that I cannot buy more than two items in a month anymore. It's teaching me how to be frugal. etc etc... Sigh! I was so scared that it is the same flu that we had and are having here. Thoughts of dying and stuff started running through me. All of a sudden a wonderful life flashed into my mind. I never imagined life as beautiful as I imagined last night. It was a long time ago since I felt like this. I stopped appreciating life to some extent I guess. I mean I am happy and stuff but last night was kind of different. It was so vivid and precious. I realized that for sometime, I have taken many things for granted already including my life per se. It is such a shame that I have to be scared of losing something precious before appreciating it. I'm sorry. "To Err is Human" (: